Thanks!

Thanks everyone for the nice comments- I really appreciate it. Madelyn is feelig much better now. She still has a nasty cough, but the antibiotics are starting to work. I'm trying to get my voice back, and yesterday was really rough. But I woke up today feelig less stopped up, which makes me 100% better! Jenn's wedding is this weekend, so the wedding festivities start tonight. I'm soo excited to see her finally get married. Plus, Makenzie is a flowergirl and I love to see her all dressed up. I just wish my bridesmaid dress wasn't so tight on my bum! I'll post lots of pics next week. Thankfully, the Rasco's are coming to get Maddie today. I couldn't go through this weekend with an active toddler even with the help of my husband! Till next time....

XOXO,
Crystal

Ranting!

I like to read every one's posts, and I'm trying to blog more. It is hard though-do you guys really care? I mean my last post was a month ago. I guess that means I'm doing better, right? It's not like I don't have time. Actually, I have too much time, and I generally waste it on the couch! I guess that is part of my problem. I sometimes feel like I'm not an active participant in "life". I work on the weekends at night. Generally it takes until Wednesday to get back into a normal sleep schedule. But I can't seem to ever get motivated to do anything. It's like my crappy sleep schedule is now affecting me all the time. You would think that only two night shifts wouldn't be that bad, and it isn't really unless you let it, like I have. To make matters worse, I had the flu last week, Chris caught it, and Madelyn has been battling something as well, and still is. Now I think I have what she has! Every week I tell myself "Gonna have the house cleaned by Tuesday afternoon and spend the rest of the week being productive with Maddie, and also eat lunch with Mak. P.S. GO TO THE GYM!!! Quit wasting your money if you're not gonna go!" It is the same speech every week, and I almost follow through, until Maddie refuses to nap unless I'm napping with her. If I nap before lunch, then my day is pretty much wasted. Then I shove everything to Friday- the day before I go to work. I know you people probably think I'm crazy. I mean, is housework really that important? It is to me, and I get ill when it is not done, but I also don't want to do it either. You know, it's weird, I don't go out much during the day if my weekly housework is not done. I feel like I should be at home cleaning, and that it is just piling up while I'm not there.
Really??? This post is crazy. If this is the worst I have to worry about, I have a pretty good life, right? What I need to do is quit whining, get off my lazy butt, get out of the house with Maddie during the day, get my house cleaned and keep it that way! I need to step up and be a better mom without complaint! I just wish all this came naturally to me like it does for others! Does anyone ever get in a rutt like me? If so, I would love to hear it. Right now, I think I'm a crazy woman! HA! My husband probably thinks so too! "Love you honey"!
Anyway, now that I have finished ranting and gotten everything off my chest, I'm going to go be a "big girl" now! I promise to post something soon that is a bit more positive! Till then- Crystal