I like to read every one's posts, and I'm trying to blog more. It is hard though-do you guys really care? I mean my last post was a month ago. I guess that means I'm doing better, right? It's not like I don't have time. Actually, I have too much time, and I generally waste it on the couch! I guess that is part of my problem. I sometimes feel like I'm not an active participant in "life". I work on the weekends at night. Generally it takes until Wednesday to get back into a normal sleep schedule. But I can't seem to ever get motivated to do anything. It's like my crappy sleep schedule is now affecting me all the time. You would think that only two night shifts wouldn't be that bad, and it isn't really unless you let it, like I have. To make matters worse, I had the flu last week, Chris caught it, and Madelyn has been battling something as well, and still is. Now I think I have what she has! Every week I tell myself "Gonna have the house cleaned by Tuesday afternoon and spend the rest of the week being productive with Maddie, and also eat lunch with Mak. P.S. GO TO THE GYM!!! Quit wasting your money if you're not gonna go!" It is the same speech every week, and I almost follow through, until Maddie refuses to nap unless I'm napping with her. If I nap before lunch, then my day is pretty much wasted. Then I shove everything to Friday- the day before I go to work. I know you people probably think I'm crazy. I mean, is housework really that important? It is to me, and I get ill when it is not done, but I also don't want to do it either. You know, it's weird, I don't go out much during the day if my weekly housework is not done. I feel like I should be at home cleaning, and that it is just piling up while I'm not there.
Really??? This post is crazy. If this is the worst I have to worry about, I have a pretty good life, right? What I need to do is quit whining, get off my lazy butt, get out of the house with Maddie during the day, get my house cleaned and keep it that way! I need to step up and be a better mom without complaint! I just wish all this came naturally to me like it does for others! Does anyone ever get in a rutt like me? If so, I would love to hear it. Right now, I think I'm a crazy woman! HA! My husband probably thinks so too! "Love you honey"!
Anyway, now that I have finished ranting and gotten everything off my chest, I'm going to go be a "big girl" now! I promise to post something soon that is a bit more positive! Till then- Crystal
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Ranting!
Posted by Crystal at 1:42 AM
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
Crys- you are SO not alone. I can't imagine juggling work, a husband and 2 beautiful girls... as a single working girl I oftentimes get overwhelmed with just keeping up with ME! I have NO doubt you're a wonderful wife/mother who maybe is just being too hard on herself. Every so often I bundle up the worst of the laundry and send it out to be done. About once a quarter I have a guy that comes in and cleans my place top to bottom so then I just have to do "maintenance" cleaning. I don't feel bad that I don't clean the blinds every week or sweep behind the fridge. It's easy for me to say that because it's just me that I have to worry about, but find a way to cut yourself some "corners" and more importantly cut yourself some slack. You'll never get these years back, so you have to make the most of them!
-Candice
Its your blog and you can whine if you want to! And yes, I care if you post. I love hearing what is going on in your life, and seeing pics of your girls. I brought home a box of high school pics from my parents' house and you are in a lot of them! I miss you. Keep blogging!!!! I love that I am able to keep in touch with long distance friends through my blog.
I too like to hear from you and see the lovely ladies you are raising! I also admire the work you do and can only imagine what it must do to your sleeping/eating/cleaning habits! I work "normal" and still struggle. So keep on keeping on and KEEP ON BLOGGING:)
Alison
Yes I love your posts and blog so dont quit. I like to look at all the beautiful pictures you take. I still need to get you to take some pictures of Will soon. Maybe when it gets warmer and we can do it outside. I definitely know where you are coming from. I get in those ruts too. I cannot imagine working nightshift and taking care of a baby right now. I eventually figured out that I couldnt handle working nights. It made me a crazy person literally, ask my husband. Will and I stay in our pjs probably 3 days out of the week. I feel like my world revolves around his naps. haha. Oh well, Im sure it will get better soon!! Im ready for spring! Well I miss seeing you at work and keep blogging!
Post a Comment